the cycle of WORK

My working life is a cycle. A cycle of quiet- hectic - depressed - inefficient - quiet

The eat shit-depressing period is sort of over, and it is now the inefficient time... by inefficient, it means that you have not many new cases, but time just dunno why passed so fast, and it seemed like you have done nothing, and then you realised that you have not seen you new cases yet.

My box file of cases are overflooding.. till a stage that I have difficulty closing my box file. XDH said that I should get a thicker one. Man, i really hope that the problem will resolve by discharging more patients rather than getting a bigger file.

YST did a rough colation of the "stucked" cases this morning, and I self-proclaimed that I am the champion of this. 11 cases awaiting for something in my ward, and i think eh... 9 are mine? I asked if I get a prize for having the most number of "stucked" cases, and CEL said that maybe a certificate of termination. HA!

today is a super crazy Monday, by 10.30am, I have already received about 5 cases, that including one DO. For a moment, I thought that I am the only one left in the team, because out of the 5 cases, 3 are under coverage. By the end of the day, there's already 9 cases, and gosh, I am so inefficient that I only managed to see 5 of them, which only 2 are my own cases.  =(

Got a peek at the team roster, and oh my, basically the whole hospital is like LS-ing... the roster runs like crazy.. i think there is easily about 10-20 cases that needs to be rostered. Damn. What a day.

As the saying goes, a bad start, a bad day. That is Ling's saying.

Don't even have the mood to clear my backlogs. And really, all these "you need to reduce your backlogs to XXX" , "your worklist must reduce to XXX by JCIA" are crap. The rate of new referrals is much faster than the rate of clearing. The worklist which I xin xin ku ku reduced from 500+ to 470, is now up to 480+ again. SHitty LAH. Seriously, i think there is no way to clear backlogs so easily. Unless we totally do not see any cases for 1 month. But that is FAT HOPE.

Can't remember what I have been doing for 3 weeks of July.. It seemed to be super busy, and I am supposed to stay back to clear my backlogs, but damn, only managed to decrease my worklist from 500 to 477... How come it felt like I have cleared more than that??!! I think rumours is true that you can only clear all your worklist when you go for maternity leave or when you resign. Sigh.

Past few days have been like a season for RTAs with young victims. ICU was mad house last week, with 2 demise on the same day. Literally one after another... Tragic and sad. Then comes the news about the freak bus accident in Bedok. Terrible.

Hope the week will be better. For me to catch up on the cases that I have temporarily put aside.. ..

The most terrible thing that can happen in the morning is to find that there is no breakfast to eat.
And this is precisely how I felt this morning...

Seriously nothing to eat...

 

And this is exactly how I feel... Terribly sad...

But! I shall not be defeated. I ransacked other cupboards, searched through the fridge... And found these...

And then.... they become these... ...  

June has ended, and it's the start of July already. When I was still taking my Grad dip course, I remembered how we were complaining that the bond of 1 and 1/2 years is so long, and how we were cheated to sign it... But well.. in a blink of the eyes, we have graduated from the class like 3 months, and we have left one more year to finish the bond.
Turn-over rate is very high in our field... But to me, I cannot see where I can go should I resign from my current work scope. Probably this is what I want, or probably I haven't found what I wanted yet. But at least, I feel happy in my current portfolio (minus the lousy and stupid family-don't-want-to-care cases, and of course, the boxes of backlogs hidden in my cupboard).

I was reading the ST Special Report about Heart transplant. Yes, coming Tuesday is the Transplant Week and me and GCC are invited for an appreciation lunch at SGH.  =)
Back to the Special Report, it wrote briefly about the experience of a potential organ recipient. Man, I felt somehow a little emotional when reading it. I really didn't know that a potential recipient could be facing such anxiety, happiness and yet, disappointment.
To think that some cases for potential donor, we were still grumbling about how long the case could drag for days and into the night. I think I would not grumble about that now.

Hope that this article is able to educate more Singaporeans about organ donation, and be more open to it.