Amnesia or Repression?

According to Satir, people's behaviours/ coping methods could be charaterised by 5 stances and 4 out of the 5 are dysfunctional stances, being:
1. Blamer
2. Placator
3. Super-reasonable
4. Irrelevant

For me, it has been proven that I am number 4. Irrelevant, which i quite agree upon.

The Irrelevant:
- pretends that the Stressor is nonexistent.
- diverts the focus from the present, feeling-laden situation to something else.
- often presents scatterbrained comments
BUT, after transformation,
- has the ability to be spontaneous and have fun.
- becomes a creative individual capable of congruent interactions


So am I an Irrelevant transforming to be congruent.
Or an Irrelevant in the making?


An Irrevelant is said to suffer the most hurt in the past experience which is y he/she discount self, others and context.
So wat hurt have i suffered??

People who know me would definitely know that I have a lousy memory.
Poor long-term memory? Amnesia? OR Repression??

I used to think that maybe i have poor long-term memory.
But now, I think maybe I am repressing some of my hurtful memories, which are... ....
I dun remember.

I think that I am a person who doesn't like to show my emotional side to others. Who have seen me cry before?
I doubt anyone has ever seen my tears before (besides after i yawn --> another scatteredbrain comments).


Haiz.. .. I am hurt. BUt where? when?